It’s days like today and frankly the last week that make me realise it’s not always going to be easy being a mummy. It’s not because I’ve been kept awake during the night, it’s not having to deal with a temper tantrum or an illness, it’s actually me! I’m a disabled mum.
I was born with a disability which affects my mobility and it has deteriorated in recent years. I have good days and bad but on days like today and this week it makes me realise how much I can rely on my husband and family for support at times.
I’m managing but the old peg leg is a little sore at present and walking, especially up and down the stairs is a little painful, not easy when my little girl wants carrying too (cue me encouraging her to join me in a bum shuffle down the stairs, making it into a game when it is in fact for my own pain threshold!) She’s too young to understand now but hopefully in time she will.
Prior to having my little girl I could use my crutches and since having her I have been using her pushchair as a zimmer frame when I need to I guess! However there are times now that she is mobile when I don’t have the buggy but I need to keep hold of her and carry something else and crutches just aren’t an option and that’s when problems can arise. Because of this I today avoided our weekly arts session that we both love so much, I was gutted, but a lovely friend of mine and her little girl came over for a coffee and a natter so that was nice and didn’t make me feel like I was just sat. My hubby also came home from work early and has been a star preparing meals for the next few days and helping where necessary.
I can be strong-willed and tend to push through my situation and this in turn means I can tend to forget my own limitations sometimes and even make my pain worse. However today has made me realise it’s not always going to be easy to be a playmate and super mum when feeling like this, but I will continue to do my best and like throughout my life I will adapt and find new ways of doing things.
I guess I am lucky to have a good support network around me and I count my blessings for that… I also hope that growing up with a mummy that has a disability my little girl will learn to be more understanding and accepting of others as I have.